Me peering over the penthouse window
Something I noticed just now: I seem to get attached to people really easily but at the same time, I can cut those people out of my life really easily too. It's weird because with some people I meet, after talking with them a few times I think to myself "I'm really going to miss them if we ever lose touch" It's like I have some sort of desire to be friends with them for the rest of my life & most of the time I'm not sure why. I guess I have a hard time cutting people out..I mean it's kind of weird when you've known each other for awhile then go your separate ways..knowing you probably won't see/hear from each other ever again. I've experienced this a lot over the past few months with people I met on vacation, at the bar, and just anywhere. I did get "attached" to a lot of people but now I've lost touch with so many of them (or I'm trying to hahah) and right now I'm just sitting here wondering WHY I was so attached in the first place.
& I'm also thinking about how (as I'm getting older) it's getting harder and harder to keep people around for a long time. Actually I shouldn't even call them friends - just "close acquaintances" I guess. People are constantly coming and going - I used to think of this as a sad fact of life but now I don't. When someone leaves, a new replacement will always come in to make you forget about the previous person. For most people, the only ones who will ALWAYS be with you all through life is yourself, your family and a few true friends (in that order). As long as you have them, nobody/nothing else in life really matters. At least I know that's true for me. & I'm really grateful to have good relationships with all of them.
I think I've been writing this post for about an hour now. I don't even know why I decided to write it just now. Nothing in particular happened today that made me decide to think about this. Actually there was something I DID want to write about but I totally went off topic. I'll probably make another post about that some other time.